Love (& Hope) at first sight

Today we had our first ultrasound at the RE's office. It went great. I kind of freaked out at first because it looked like an empty sac, but then they zoomed in and I could see it really in there! The heartbeat was flickering away. R was able to see it better than I was, but it was beating at 123 bpm! YAY! We go back again to follow up with the RE on November 11. I just pray that this little lump keeps growing strong!

beta levels

Ok, here is how the beta levels are going:

12 dpo = 44
15 dpo = 198
17 dpo = 394

its looking good for now! I go for my first ultrasound on 10/29. I hope we will see a heartbeat by then. Until the heartbeat I am stressed out A LOT!

holy hell!

So T called me yesterday and asked if I was pregnant. Its still too early to test so I said I didnt know. She said she had a dream and that I was pregnant with triplets. That scared me enough to test at 3:30 AM and wtf....it was ++++++!


Im freaking out now! Im terrified! I have betas scheduled for the next few days!

thinking of next time

Not that I am being pessimistic, but I am looking toward the next round of meds/IUI etc. I just dont feel like this was it. Now that Ive said that, watch me be wrong. I hope so!!

I had weird cramps this week. I usually dont cramp up like this until right before my period. Blah. Maybe just another side effect of the clomid. I am planning on testing on the 11th or so. I have an appointment at CCRM on the 15th. I hope they can give us some more insight. We arent going to do IVF (at least not now) but maybe they can have other ideas.